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Strength for the Storm

“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.” – Isaiah 40:29-31

Weekly, if not daily, people continue to tell me how strong and courageous I am. I normally smile and nod but the truth is – I once had trouble believing.  

For a couple of years, my overall strength waned. More times than I care to admit, I secretly would tell myself that I was not strong and I was not courageous no matter what I was told. I felt my physical and mental state proved it. There were mornings I couldn’t walk two feet, days where I cried and sulked in my tears and moments where I felt like my entire world was over.

That attitude caused me to reject every encouraging word I received. It caused me to think, “If I was so strong then why can’t I or why am I.” It was a battle I faced for many years until one day I began to pray.

Lord, help me to believe. I don’t see the strength they see. I don’t feel strong. I feel frail and fearful. I need you.

As a result, God blessed me with three things:

  • Strength
  • Peace
  • Community

Strength – In Psalms 73:26, it reads, my flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. God strengthened me as I could not strengthen myself. He gave me the perseverance, reinforced my endurance and continues to make me stronger. Through him I am strong.

Peace – In John 14:27, it reads, Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. He gave me peace. The peace I needed to withstand the storm. No matter what the doctors said, I found myself at peace. My mental wasn’t as disturbed as it once was and I was finally able to pray and not worry.

Community – God assembled my village. He reassured me that I could accept the encouragement from family and friends. This included – A husband that would perform countless physical and emotional acts. A father who would uplift me when I couldn’t uplift myself. A mother and a grandmother who would pray with and for me. A brother and a sister who would encourage me on a daily basis. A best friend/brother that would pour spiritual life into me. Two beautiful cousins that would physically support me when I couldn’t physically do for myself. This was my village and this village played a part in my strength.

Over the years my attitude changed. I now felt like I could conquer the world. It wasn’t over for me.

I don’t know what you’re going through. Maybe you’re still waiting for him to bless you with the strength to fight your own personal obstacle(s). Perhaps you’re where I was years ago – struggling and needing God to strengthen you. Whatever it is just know that the trials and tribulations are only temporary. He will provide you with whatever it is you need to get through. Try not to give up! He loves you and he cares.

Teresa Adams, Health & Awareness Blogger

 

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When Your Plans Aren’t Working

 

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11

By Teresa Adams

You see – since I could remember children have always been something that I wanted. I love them – even the ones that need a little extra loving. I started babysitting at the age of 12 and loved all the phases of it. I loved walking the kids to the park, watching them play, walking them back to the house while singing songs, styling all the little girls hair, rough housing with the boys and reading bedtime stories.

I always told myself I wanted a big family – four kids – three boys and one girl. I wanted to start my family no more than two years after I got married. I prayed that the first three would be the boys and the last the girl.

Y’all. I had this planned and nothing was going to stop me; so I thought.

It was at the second year of marriage when I noticed that my plan was falling apart. My dreams of motherhood was slowly but surely slipping away. It was at that time that I began to feel hopeless.  

Fast forward a few years – “When are you both planning on having children?” “You’ve been married that long and don’t have any little ones? Well, what are you waiting for?” “You better start having kids before you get too old.”

For years I would respond in a way I assumed would please the person asking. I would answer with one of the three canned retorts:

“My husband is getting out the military and we’re relocating.”

 “We’re not ready right now. My husband is getting his Bachelors and I’m working on my Masters.”

“We’re relocating soon and would like to wait until we get settled in to our new destination.”

I responded for whatever season I was in at the time. However, the truth was I was having trouble and Endometriosis was the reason.  

I remember the first time someone asked me a question about having children. I wanted to respond truthfully but I was ashamed, embarrassed and quite frankly not strong enough to answer any follow up questions. My embarrassment and shame eventually turned to anger and rage. I was so tired of all the baby questions. I wanted to scream LEAVE ME ALONE. But, all I could do was respond according to my season, fake a smile, go home and drown myself in tears.

So here is the truth…

I am 32 going on 33. My husband and I have been married 9 going on 10 years. We’ve been trying for 8 years with no success and I’m trying to stay strong and trust God. But if I can be honest – it’s hard.  

My life without children is a hard pill to swallow. However, God renews my peace and strength daily so that I can keep fighting and pushing through. This is all in God’s plan and I rather his will be done than my own.

I don’t know what difficulties you’re facing today. It could be the same struggle I’m facing or it could be something completely different. But what I do know is that in the good times and the bad God is good.

The devil will come during your most vulnerable moments and try to convince you that God doesn’t care about what you’re going through and doesn’t love you enough to do anything to help you. Don’t listen. Instead, remember this:

  • God is Good
  • God loves you
  • God is a healer
  • God always wants the best for you

I know God will grant me the desire of being a mother one day. So until then I’ll wait patiently in peace because I know in the end when I see my child it would have been nothing but the promise of God.

 

Teresa is a Health and Awareness Blogger